David Nichols's Daughter

So here I am at work minding my own buisness serving customers when all of a sudden, my dad shows up. I go "Hi Dad." He goes "Your mom left me. I'm leaving town, your probably never going to see me again." Hugs me and then leaves. So, naturally, I run to the bathroom and cry. Everyone's in a whirl like "omg, are you okay?" I'm crying and making horribly embarressing noises that come with hysterical crying, then go back to work once I have calmed down. I agreed to stay and make sure it doesn't get busy, then my supervisor, Ray will send me home early, due to the fact that I need to see my mom, and not be on the verge of crying at work.

Then my brother pops in, tells me my dad's an idiot and that mom is staying at his place now, for a while. I start to bawl again cause my bro hugs me and tells me he loves me. It's rare he tells me that unless things are serious and he knows I really need it.

So by this time Ray's like "You can go home now" all panicky a little bit. So I go home. My dad does some more dumb shit. You know for fun I'm gonna list and quote some of these things.

- Smashes several objects in the house
- Asks my brother if he can come over to clean it up (Clean your own fucking mess.)
- Almost cuts my mom's wedding ring in half
- Called to tell me he saw Lea laughing with a cab driver in another cab, which I guess obviously means they were laughing about him.
- Says she's going to turn everyone against him (Cause you know, we're in high school)
- Tells me on the phone that he's going to kill himself, then sets the phone down so I can hear him opening pill bottles
-Asks me to give messages to my mom
- Calls my mom over and over asking if they will get back together, than asks me if I think she's lying.
- Says Devin hates him cause my brother won't take his crap
- There's the fact he brought his problems to my work -__-
-Called me about 20 times in 2 days
- Says I'm his only friend and that he needs me to listen to his problems (Not friend Dad. Daughter D-A-U-G-H-T-E-R)

Gah. Idiot.

If I wanted children, I wouldn't have wasted so much money on condoms and birth control.

So 3 days after this all started. They're back together. Bad move Mom. The worst thing to do is usually the easiest, and that is unfortunate. I know.

It would have been wonderful to have had a normal family where your parents took care of you physically and emotionally, instead of the other way around. However, on the bright side, all this and the other 22 years of crap my brother went through, and the 19 I went through makes us all the more determined to have a great family of our own. I will be sure to protect, comfort and advise my children in all the ways, my parents did not. My brother and I have even agreed to have children around the same time if we can and we will have an amazing, big family all our own. Stop this genetic disaster in it's tracks.

- Lindsay. (AKA David's unfortunate Daughter)

Crafts

Today I bought canvas's, oil pants, and paint brushes. Chris also bought me a coloring book with dinosaurs :D Happy Day.

I've been very sick these past couple days, and the worst of it (aside from the horribly burning throat the first two days) has been the sinus headaches. When I tilt my head upside down, it hurts :(

I've been incredibly lazy lately. Our house looks like hell. Thank god for Tera, She cleans and she doesn't even live here. Gah, at least the boys clean the kitchen. I've touched it like, twice maybe. I hate dishes. I just hate them. It may have something to do with my dad making me wash dishes by hand twice a day for ten years, but who knows. I do all our laundry (for Chris and I), I clean our bedroom, and we both clean the living room. It's flawed but okay system that just sort of happened.

I'm going to have a halloween party. It's gonna be bad ass I have decided. This shall be my costume.

I wore bunny years and a tail for halloween in grade 7. I shall have the coolest costume there.

I'm a lot less fun nowadays. I need to fix that.

So that's all I have for now.

Torn two ways, once again.

Psst... Wanna know a secret? Okay. It's not really a secret. I didn't go to university, partly (a bigger part than I care to admit) so I could be with Chris. He's quite amazing you know. He's cute, and he really really loves me. I love him so very, very much. He's the best part of my life.

The worst part of my life is living in Dawson. I hate it here. I feel like a useless piece of crap for staying here. It's been a good year, and I like my job and everything, but I have been living here for 19 years, and I hate it here. I just want to get away from all these same faces. I want to live somewhere warm, I want to see the world, but I know he doesn't. Not like I do.

I want to go to Italy. I want to go to school. I want to meet a whole new breed of people, see a different setting. I want to take him with me, I don't know if he will come.

I'm going. I just wish I knew what that means for us.